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Wednesday, September 29, 2010

You Are a Granny Smith Apple

You are sweet, but you aren't overly sweet. You let your tart side show through sometimes.

You can be a bit uncompromising and high maintenance. You know what you want, and you're going to get it.

You are durable and sturdy. You have both a lot of physical and mental strength.

No matter what, you don't lose your edge. After all these years, you still give people a bit of a shock.

What Kind of Apple Are You?

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writtern @10:59 AM

duno

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Duno who still reads this pretty dull blog, but nevermind i see it more as my personal record of life(:

. been sick the whole of last week but thankx to my thursday free day, it really helped me to recover much faster!

. met up wth clara last sun and she say i changed! In terms of crazy ways in the past. When I went saw my cvcf senior in sch this sem since we met last year, she say I kind of looked different too- Like i have grown in this past year. Yes. Staying in hall really caused me to grow quite a lot, so hey I can have a mature side too! Apart from still being able to carry off as a teenager when i wear my secondary school uniform.

. Felt kind of defeated from two incidences lately. Well if you are really that kaypo to find out what these two incidences are, can just ask me directly and can encourage me too(:

.Went ubin today. I KEEP GETTING INSECTS BITE THOUGH I SPRAYED/SOAKED MYSELF IN REPELLENT!!! I may appear to be some spoilt kid, paranoid when I got bitten but there is a history behind it. I used to love nature when young. Ever since I got dangue fever which is a v horrible experience, I really hated insects. Once bitten, twice shy- probably some truth in this saying.

Though it was scorching hot, skin sticky from all the repellents, duno-what-insects are trapped in your hair, need produce a report within five days regarding all birds you spot in this trip, at least there is ONE GOOD ending.

When leaving the jetty, a guy pointed to the sky and there it is- amazing view of a ring of rainbow around the sun. Smply spectecular- more spectecular than any birds i saw in Ubin. This rainbow ring is the FIRST in twenty years for me. Really reminded me of God's rainbow promise. Plus saturday is my SABBATH day, I felt really encouraged by God's presence admist of all the not so wow morning I had (:

writtern @8:31 AM

justafeeling

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Woke up this morning feeling really refreshed. It is my sabbath day! For those who do not understand what is sabbath, its sort of like a day in a week which the bible says one should rest, and reconnect with God. Saturday is my sabbath day(:

Last night, I dint have v good sleep. Since secondary school, I really fear darkness at night when i sleep for sometimes nightmares will haunt me and horror scenes will came accross my mind when I closed my eyes. Last night, I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night and felt really uncomfortable and a little panicky.

That is in the midde of my sleep. But before the sudden wake up and panic attack, I had a dream. It is about one of my non-christian friend and I will not elaborate my dream here.

Afternoon, I went to church. Standing in his sanctuary, I have a sudden sad feeling. I look around me, and they are people who came church and we bonded as a family of christ. Then, I thought of my close friends. God has always place me in cliques when I the only christian among a group of them. I really love all of them and start to picture a day when will walk with all my close frens and we say lets go to church! There is really a deep desire inside me for this day to come true, and perhaps my greatest wish.

Iso, be bees, taitai, candy, albert, mk, wf, xiao ming, ter ter, lizzard, dodo, clara, jas, eunice I love you all and my birthday wish every year will only be one (:

writtern @8:31 AM

My little canto adventure

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Let me share my canto dictionary so far!
- nei ho, sek fan mei?
- nei hai ngor pang yao, koi hai ngor pang yao
-meh si?
-dim gai?
-ngor ooi sheong qi sor
-nei yao mo cheong leong?
-ji ci nei!
-man man keng
- ngor mmmm ji doh
- zou can, yam char
- dor zeh
-ngor tim wa hong ma gao yat mm yi seh lok yi sam
-ho yeet
-ga zeh, ah ma, ngor oi fan gao
- zou tao!

zoi kin everyone! ^^

writtern @9:16 AM

geek

Thursday, July 29, 2010

YEA! SCHOOL IS STARTING!!!!!! (:(:

There is always this geeky-ness in me. I realy like school. Since young, I always have trouble sleeping the night before school reopen simply because I am very excited. For non-school lovers, you will probably roll your eyes or DUH at this entry hehe.

I entered into 2010 unprepared, busy with cca stuff and have no time to rest and reflective upon 2009. These three moths of break really works wonders for me. Three months sounds longggg but 12 weeks sounds short ( quite amazing huh).

And in these 12 weeks, I have accomplished quite alot. Went Batam, serving in progams for student camp, going genting with friends, turned 20, landed myself in 6 random ad hoc jobs. Its really wonderful experience and a school break like no other.

I MISS SCHOOL!

writtern @7:30 AM

not so amazing week

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones." Prov 17:22

Been having a not so amazing week so far. The weather is fantastic for sleep! A lil perk for the not-so-amazing-ness.

Sitting in library now, hungry and tired. Just want a little space away from home. My desktop at home is malfunctioning and there's no way i can fix it. Since mum is the only user of that com, she start throwing temper yesterday. I can understand her fraustration so i did not speak a word when she start to vent it on me.

Not so fantastic this morning too when I just woke up. I admit I am not in a fabulous cherry mood this morning so probably I irritate her a lil. Things snowballed and I really cannot take it just sitting there silently and listen to her reprimanding me.

Its always a sore when it comes to my relationship with mum. Tears will just flow out uncontrollably when I think about it even now, I must have look dumb keep wiping my face in the library.

To me, mum is more of a figure of fear than a figure of love to me. When i read past jornals dated back in primary sch, everything I do I thought of my mum. Getting back results, loosing stuff and even when I fall down my tears is more of being afraid to tell her. God created and love mum, and I have to respect her.

I love mum not only because God love her but also I know she loved me. But there's this prick inside me that perhaps I am not so willing to remove yet. When facing mum, there is like this "natural reflex" in me that I will feel irritated, which makes me feel v guilty. Its kind of weird that when I am nice to her and she gets v touchy, I will get irritated by her touchy-ness and went back toignoring her.

This is perhaps a lesson of love I have to learn throughout my life and I really felt better when typing this paragraph. For the verse at the start of this entry, is what i saw on facebook this morning which really encouraged me. A cheerful heart vs a crushed spirit. I have decided to let the past keave me, no old scores or self pitiness for all these are pointless. Forgive and move on, knowing that there are many beautiful promises ahead (:

writtern @10:33 PM

july

Friday, July 16, 2010

Not been blogging for a long time sure gets laziness setting in! Too many things happened within these few weeks that i do not know where to begin from.

Its the month of July, and i reached 20 years old!! Quite an akward age and really blessed to receive birthday messages from those i really loved- including vi clique, shooting frens, jc frens, secondary school clique, two primary sch pals and my lovely hall buddies (: Its nothing much actually, spent the whole day at home, cooking noodles for myself for dinner. Was chatting with one of my good fren Albert on msn that night and we are discussing about big 21 next year.

I said that it will be a once- in-a-lifetime day. And he said sth that really impressed and spoke directly to me. This is what he said " everyday is a once-in-a-lifetime day". He may said it as a joke, or may not feel much about it, but it hit me. Many of us have regarded major events in our lives as once-in-a-lifetime such as A levels, 21 birthday, day of marriage, first time you tried sth wild etc but what we hardly realise is that everday itself is important and can never be chased back again.

Skip over my genting trip till yest, midnight, I received news that my shooting club senior in jc had passed away from a car accident. It really striked me once again. Till now there are still tons of things i witheld from doing. People i failed to cherish. But who knows time may be running up for me and I don't know.

One thing that learnt in this month is that there are good points in everyone of us which is admirable and sth that one can learn from. It may be masked by some flaws, but in times of doubt, I will choose to believe in the good in everyone (:

writtern @1:36 AM