wine
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Occasions like this calls for a little wine to null senses- just a lilttle. Random thoughts and sleepless nights recently. Don't usually use my brain to reflect very often so when i does, its just... different? Can actually sense some difference in vibes.
Looking back, there are certain things in my life where i felt it was an 遗憾 (forgive me, i feel that chinese words can always bring up the essence of some things). It is not a regret, nor a blame but just moments where I will sigh and shake my head to it.
Knowing time is not in my hands, but His, i could only obey and do what i am supposed to do at that moment. Choosing between what you want to do and what you ought to do isnt an easy thing at all. Maybe looking back moments when i follow my own desires creating a mess in the end, and now choosing instead what i ought to do caused this v weird feeling call 遗憾 which is very difficult to describe.
This may be a reason why i love sad songs but with a little faster pace. Like the link in my blog- v nice song! Its not dramatically emo nor happy but just a tinge of sadness among the pace of the music. Life still need to moves on but there are some nights like this when i feel like having a little wine and stop thinking and sleep. Well mum will scream at me if i go to my house cabinet and pop a bottle of wine now so i will choose the latter one which is to sleep now(:
The earth won't stop revolving if i am emotional. The sun won't stop rising and setting when i am feeling emotional. I am not going to stop breathing when i am feeling emotional. The world and My physical body is moving on. So entire zhongyun will move on- at least not for tonight, will start to bounce again tml.
